By writing this blog I am hoping one day I will be able to look back and see I have came a long ways. My desire is to grow as a person, release my fears and frustrations, let go of harboured negative feelings and record some memories of my daily life with my husband and girls.
I will share some events of my past because our past is who we are and until we come to grips and accept it because it cannot be altered, it flows in us, sometimes bouncing in our heads over and over. I need to let go of some terrible events in my past. Forgive some folks. Understand I had no control over some events and should take no blame. Understand that I may never understand the reasons why things happen but God has a plan and I, more than anything else in this world, need to trust fully and wholly God. The saddness I feel, the physical ailments, the emptyness, all this can be made new and whole, I can be healed emotionally and physically by God. It is time for me to really live a life of having God in my heart and in my everything. I started the book "Not a Fan......................" My desire is to absorb this book and then apply it. My desire is to change my life and in the process change my childrens and husbands life and those I come into contact with. I need a new attitude. God, you hear and know my heart, I have cried out to you to feel better, I am so glad I still have time to really live the life you intended. I trust you.
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